Issues of Life

Juliette: I think I just got my heart ripped into two. I felt it cracking open, but I said to myself that it would patch up in no time. Unfortunately, on Wednesday, I felt it being ripped open with such force. Who could possibly be doing this to me?. I guess I gave the person too much time space even when all hope seemed lost. It was quite obvious how tables turned. Another had taken over my place, I could read between the lines, yet I didn't want to believe so. I kept fighting for my place, but they showed no sign of coming back. I bet this was a clear sign I had to walk away. Now look at the damage I caused to my heart. How many months would it take for it to get stitched back to normal?. Don't blame me if I have trust issues due to past experiences. Cause I have had enough of fairytales. Now I'm living in the reality of matters. No more false alarms & hopes. I think I need time to myself, I have new foundations to build and constructions to be put in place. No one is allowed to take my heart on a rollercoaster drive anymore, It's been through enough. It needs some space to reasssemble itself, for a new lifestyle based on lessons learnt. No more making silly mistakes and allowing people too much control over my heart, cause they may decide to pull the plugs anytime without prior notice. Indeed, love is blind, they say. No, you don't feel my pain, cause my pain is indescribable. I need no comforting, all I need is time to heal and a year would do. No more stressing myself. I'm on a one year leave from any form of committment.

Vindictive Ex IV

Me: I and my fiancé came to an agreement that I would buy her credits to call me whenever she felt like calling. I would also try and keep up since calling isn't my thing, she gladly agreed. For a month, she was frequently calling but at particular times, I took notice of. So I decided to call at unexpected times, just out of the blue and her line would always be user-busy. I would ask her about it, but she would say it's probably the network. I knew she was definitely keeping secrets from me. I would ask her if there is anything I should know or anything at all on her mind but she would say, nothing. I would also intentionally call customer care at the times she usually calls me to see her reaction. She would ask me if it was Rosie I was chatting with, and I would say no. Why is Rosie the only person she asked if it was?. She wouldn't reply. I noticed she wanted to find a reason to lay me off, since the other guy she probably was spending much time on the phone with, was serious than I am. I mean, that is how she saw it. But I knew they were both using eachother to some extent but I wasn't sure how, so I decided not to draw conclusions. So for one week, she stopped calling me. And it was clear that her priorities had changed, she didn't really care how I would react if I found out anymore. I knew what she planned on telling me was, if I cared about her and her daily activities, she wouldn't have ended up with another. But the funny thing was, she didn't really care about mine either. She only cared about me when there was something to benefit from. So finally, she confirmed she had another guy on the side and she wanted me to know. I knew she wanted to know what my reaction would be, so she would base on that to make her case, so I didn't comment. She tried to come back after a month, but I told her I cannot marry a woman who keeps a whole relationship with another guy away from me, just to get back at me. Lord knows, the extent she might go when we get married. My mama after hearing my side of the story, got down of my car without saying a word, and went straight into her house and closed the gate. I then realized that my fiancé might have gone to my mama, to beg her to help convince me to take her back. Now I have my peace of mind. The Lord knows my future would be bright.

Vindictive Ex III

Me: My mama called me to come right over to her apartment this weekend, cause she didn't believe nor understand what she was hearing, "as rumor has it". I knew exactly what it was all about. I broke up with Stephanie, my fiancé, a month ago without telling her. I know how she might have felt, trying to defend me, that I wouldn't do such a thing without consulting her first. All I prayed about at church this Sunday morning, was that the Lord should help me with a very tangible reason why I decided to keep it from my mum up until now. I totally felt her pain, now that I began to think about it. I never really had the time to think about it this way, cause there was always a project to keep my mind off things, at work. I'm in front of her apartment now, still in my car in the driveway, thinking hard if any reason would pop up, cause trust me, I did have a reason why I didn't tell her. And I kept postponing telling her, after the week of the break up, and now it's a month. So I'm still in the car, caught up in my thoughts. My phone starts ringing, and is her on the phone. I pick up quickly without any hesitation, cause she might be watching, from whatever angle, I cannot tell, but I know my mama so well. "I have seen your car in the driveway for a while now, if you cannot come up here, I'm on my way down there", she said and hanged up. In less than three minutes, this woman is sitting right next to me in my car. She just stepped in and said, start talking, I'm all ears Kwadwo Danso. Anytime, she calls me by that name, I know this isn't the time for jokes or beating around the bush.  So I start talking, "Mama, I broke up with Awurama, cause I realised we weren't best of friends. In the sense that, she keeps things from me but she feels comfortable sharing it with this guy called Kwame. They do everything together, and is like I'm the 3nd party to know everything. Whenever I complain, she says, I don't like calling her but Kwame does all the time. So we then came to an agreement. To be continued.

Vindictive Ex II

Eve: I think that is Sharon standing in front of the super market. So what do I do now?. Do I go say hello or pretend I haven't seen her until she calls out my name?. If only she would remember me. You know these Junior High School mates and their new classy attitude they've downloaded from playstore or whereever that is from. Even if they remember you, they pretend they don't. I don't really know what they get from doing that; thus their business anyway. I'm sure they already know how karma feels like, they should just keep up with that attitude until they learn their lesson. You know, its funny when you meet such people one time and they pretend they don't know you. Eventually, you go your seperate ways but another time; the Lord being so good, you meet them again. This time around they're the one to call out your name, and you look up towards heaven and whisper; Thank You Lord. (Laugh out loud!) . Cause is like the ball is in your court now, "do as you wish".  That feeling is just so indescribable. But then before you react, you remember the teachings from Sunday School services, when little, not to repay evil for evil. So you wave and walk away. You still make sure you put on a facial expression that clearly says; don't dare try to bring up a conversation. (You feel me?!. Then that's about that.)

Vindictive Ex

Me: I'm about to lose it, just gimme a minute; count 1 to 60 while you at it. Truth be told, I see life from a different lens whenever I fall sick. That's my time for reviewing my life, either than to lay down idle spotting the cobwebs I have on my ceiling without being able to reach them. Not any severe illness, I mean, just a slight cold, headache, stomach ache and I'm in my zone of life review. That way I'm able to see almost all my mistakes, opportunities, goals, desires, ambitions etc. I sob or laugh when necessary, cause it's like my life comes to a standstill and all previous activities I have engaged in flips through my mind like a slideshow. That moment, I forget about my physical pain cause I'm very much soaked into my thoughts that my name would have to be mentioned severally before I regain consciousness. I begin to send messages or call people it's been a while I've heard from and I apologize if necessary for all appointments I made and failed to fulfill my end of the bargain, that skipped my mind when the time came. Then it would come to the turn of those I was very close to but not anymore, and those whom have been with me through thick and thin and the list goes on and on and on. Then the new people I've met and finally anyone I've met; their influence on my life. The direction my life is moving towards, the positivity and negativity around my life. The stuffs I use to love doing but do them no more. My new sense of taste and things that move me currently. The things that influence the things I do and don't do. And it goes on and on. Welcome to my world of thinking, where everything is left unturned and scattered all over. Enjoy your ride through my head and I hope you find the answer you're looking for.

Future IV

Girl: Hey, what's up?
Boy:  What are you up to?
Girl: Nothing at the moment. Just there.
Boy:  You said you return all your missed calls.
Girl: Yes, I do. Saw yours that's why I texted you.
Boy: I ain't part of those you return their calls huh!
Girl: Oh come on!, give me a break.
Boy: Oh really!, you need a break now huh!
Girl: What's your beef anyway?
Boy: So what have you been up to all day?
Girl: Nothing in particular. Why?
Boy: So meaning you've been basically free all day?
Girl: You can put it that way. So?
Boy: You didn't call nor return my call.
Girl: Hey!, Are you okay?
Boy: Do I sound okay to you?
Girl: That's the whole point of me asking if you are.
Boy: You call back, whenever you feel like.
Girl: #RollsEyes... Boy, bye!
Boy: Nice nice nice!, We shall see then.
Girl: Go solve your issues. You surely have issues.
Boy: #Chuckles... Girl, bye!
Girl: You won't pick up my call now huh!
Boy: Will also call back when I'm in the mood.
Girl: Suit yourself!
Boy: Working on that!.

Future III

Yaw: Meet Tanya, we met at an interesting stage in our lives. She was transitioning from her bad habits. Since she was tired of her old ways and wanted to try something new. She thought turning a new leaf was a good idea. And there I was, as clean as a Pope, ignorant of any bad deed. Ready to have a feel of enjoyment in life. I remember the first time I was kissed by a girl unexpectedly, I actually said sorry, as if I did something wrong. The girl laughed at me for a whole minute. I guess that was the first time she met a guy like that; hearing we existed. Another time, I went to this birthday bash and I was dancing with one fine lady. I thought I was killing it, until she turned and was like, "Really!, Is that all you can do?". Another encounter was with this Latino girl I met, she one time asked me to massage her cause she was so tired. My hand just kept shaking non-stop as if I was holding ice, she just kept laughing. Tanya on the other hand was that bad but hadn't really tried a lot of stuffs that I wanted to try. But she had done a bunch of messed up things she didn't wanna talk about. Even her standing posture was tempting, to talk of her sucking her lips when they were​ dry. You could just tell she knew stuff. I remember the first time we both went to the club. She actually danced for five hours non-stop and all I did was stand there and shake my head. Most of the guys around, wished they were in my shoes. Some tried to take my place but she pulled me even closer. Others showered insults on me. They just couldn't understand why I had a fired up girl to dance with and I was acting all timid and dull. Other times we would go to church together and I would be all over the place during praises and worship while she stands there idle as dead. Some interesting experiences we had. She's now married to a pastor, and I to a nurse

Future II

Fritz: You've shown me so much love I cannot account for. So much love I didn't think of. Sometimes, I know I don't act right and all but anytime I sit back and begin to think about my life, you pop up. We've had so many experiences that has opened my eyes to redefine life. Truth be told, my life was boring until you walked into it. I remember how I repeated the same routines everyday and wasted most of my time on people that didn't give me positive feedback. Your entrance into my life was an interesting one. You just walked right into my life and locked the door behind you, leaving the key in my wallet. Giving me the option to let you go whenever I feel like, cause you wouldn't want to forceful​ly be in my life. I'm sorry if I've ever been ungrateful in anyway. If you've ever sacrificed your time, money, leisure for me that I didn't show much appreciation for it. I know deep down in my heart I've got so much love for you, how do I know?, I sure do. I remember all the countless times I've had sleepless nights or lost concentration working cause of the way I did you wrong. And I love the way, all you want to hear me say is, I'm sorry. No matter how much I messed up, you still stretched out your hand, willing to pull me even closer. There's been so much drama yet you're always willing to let go of the past. I don't get jealous cause I trust you; my kind of jealousy is the fear of losing you. Talk to me cause agatchu!. We've come a long way to be letting stuff eat you up without letting me know.

Future

Van: I think I've got you stuck-up​ in my head. But something prevents me from hitting you up. I wouldn't call it pride, neither am I playing it safe, and Iemme put it out there that I do care a lot as well. I wish I had the words to describe this particular feeling. Please don't get me wrong. And I'm not trying to find my way with words as this may seem. Cause it would really hurt me if you tag me right away without giving me a chance. A chance not to proof myself to you, but to show you how true it is that two heads are better than one, and that plus one, if me, would make us an undisputed pair. You may have your doubts as I also have mine, yet my certainty about you is inevitable. Please hold my hand and let's look into the future together. Let's share our goals and objectives, and help each other reach higher heights. Don't let go when things become complicated. Stand by me always, and if you get tired, you're permitted to get a chair and sit beside me. Cheers to a brighter future!

Behind

Inez: Alright so I read and heard about all the stuffs you were quite bold to say behind my back. I'm saying this because we always have the opportunity to talk. If we don't talk at all, then I would understand you totally. But we do talk, and you don't mention all the things you choose to tell Abena about. Truth be told, if you tell me those things it would be very messy between us but don't we always get through it. But here is the case, I'm hearing it from a third party. And that explains the obvious, and for sure I shouldn't have be​en happy about it at all, until that person also happens to be my close friend and she feeds me with all the gossips and complaints you tell her behind my back. So now you understand why I act the way I do, and in your head, you're thinking you've done nothing wrong. Those very times you think, "I get pissed at you for no reason", are the times I read all about the information you say behind my back, and just after reading, there you would be, looking all innocent and acting all sweet. That alone injects anger into my veins and sucks the energy out of me, making me pissed and hungry at the same time. What is wrong telling me straight to my face what's on your mind, rather than bottling it up and spilling it to another soul to feed on. What good does that bring anyway?. If maybe you think telling me would solve nothing, what would telling a total stranger do?. I just thank God the one you were telling was my close friend. So if she didn't know me as you were thinking, then in her head she would have painted me black from your choice of words. I hope telling her all those information made you feel better?, while I had no idea how you actually felt and all you would say was, "it's okay". Not knowing, the matter was being elaborated to someone else. And the funny thing is that, all the suggestions she gave you were from me. Happy now?

For This I Fear

Cruise: My greatest fear is; not being able to comfort her when she is down and broken. The Lord knows that I try, but nothing I do seems to work. It isn't that she shuts me out completely, because I can see the effort she makes as well; to let me in. Yet, nothing I do cheers her up. I now understand why she told me sometime ago, that, she heals on her own and she's been use to doing that since her infancy. She tries her best to be cheerful, the only problem is that; I can always tell when something is wrong. She could be laughing all day and going about her usual routines, yet one look at her face and I can see her pain right through her. And she knows this, so she prevents that every time, because she doesn't want to see me get affected. She tries to ignore me however means possible, but that draws me even closer and makes me curious to know what the problem really is. She tries to communicate but the sorrow in her heart limits her speech. Her pain aggravates anytime she tries to express exactly how she feels. She has to talk to someone anyway, to help her healing process. I feel her pain like it's mine, yet nothing I say penetrates. The pain builds an armour around her heart and mind, and the door to unlock is no where within my reach. For this I fear, that the pain would let her do things just to get back at me and one day, she might go overboard. And that may ruin things between us.

My First Kiss

Winnie: I do remember my first kiss, but I don't think is necessary to share anyways. Honey, why do you wanna know?. Of what good use would it be?. Sweetness, I know you want to know everything about me. That's sweet and all but some issues are unnecessary to dig into, it only brings chaos and despair. Let's just look into the future and forget about the past. I've told you everything you need to know about me alright. I know you so well, and I can tell the possible follow-up questions. Don't worry, I know you're​ a little freaked​ out cause of the things you heard about my senior high school, and the kind of things almost all of us are known for, but that shouldn't get into your head so much. Moreover, I'm not bothered at all when I see you hanging with Tyson. He being a casanova and all but I don't get worried cause I know you won't do shit. Okay!, truth but told, I feel more safe around you cause I know you never messed up in senior high, in fact, you've never messed up your whole life. That's a good thing for me, cause I started messing up right from primary, and I got my first kiss in class 3. That's as far as I can go on the sharing thing, cause I would have so much to share and you wouldn't, which would feel more like an interrogation at a point and what would be the fun in that?. I love you okay!, so wipe that expression off your face and kiss me. That's my babe!.

Person of Interest

Claudia: A friend once told me something and I think it really made sense. I didn't have to go think it through. I just knew on the spot it made perfect sense. I called her one time, and we were having this great chat, until she asked me, what I have been up to these couple of weeks that I don't even say hello anymore?. Truth be told, I didn't feel like replying because we both knew what the answer was. Anyways, it look like it wasn't a rhetorical question after all. "I have been very busy with this project my boss gave me, and I have to be going here and there for follow ups, moreover, I always have to make sure to meet the deadlines week after week, which stresses me out and I also get home late so I hardly get time these days", I replied. Per my reply I knew exactly what the follow up question was. "So what about my missed calls, you never saw them?", She asked. And I replied, I was meaning to call back but anytime I tried to something seemed to pop up or I was in a hurry to do something. She wasn't convinced yet decided not to stretch the topic any longer so she concluded by saying something that hit me straight at my heart. She said,"everyone is busy with something, but we all make time for the people/things important to us." My life has not been the same since then and I thought you should know.

Ideas

Elias: An idea just popped up in my head a couple of minutes ago, and now, I have totally forgotten what it was. If only I was able to pen it down when I had the chance to. This usually happens these days, its about time I put a stop to it. I guess I should have a safe spot on my phone dabbed, "ideas", to note them down as soon they pop up. Cause I learnt one idea could be all you need to make it in life. I remember during one management lecture, the lecturer shared how one Jew became a billionaire. He slept and dreamt about an idea. He woke up, noted it and worked on it and he's now rich. Imagine how many ideas I have allowed slipped by, just like that. No room for carelessness henceforth. I have to be both sensitive and alert 24/7, which is too much work. How do I get my mind to decipher between a multi-million​ dollar idea and any random idea?. Cause an idea that one may see foolish, maybe quite useful for another. Wait a minute, I just got an idea. Oh yes!, it does come just like that, I'm full of ideas. What about creating a consulting agency, where by, we provide people with ideas/solutions. All you need to do is call us when you're​ stranded with the decision to take concerning any situation at all and we would guide you, step by step, as to what to do. It could be issues on marriage, finances, business, school etc. Isn't that a good idea?. You would see my idea come into reality a few years from now. Get yourself an idea as well. What are you waiting for?

Comfort Zone II

Juice: Coming Soon!

Comfort Zone

Juice: It was a nice experience to see her willing to face the challenges that came along with leaving her comfort zone. It wasn't something anyone would love to do. It was really a difficult thing for her to do; to sleep in another person's bed over night. But for the first time, she didn't complain too much about it. But I could see she was trying very hard to sleep but to no avail. She kept twisting and turning all over. I don't know why but her persistence and determination to find a way to get herself to sleep is what I admired about her. Because she could have decided to leave to her room after all. One thing that is worth witnessing, is noticing someone trying to come out of their comfort zone to try something new. It could be eating tuo zaafi (local dish) or taking a train for the first time. I remember witnessing my cousin take in fufu (local dish) on her first visit to Ghana. She really struggled to finish eating. She could have stopped eating, cause no one was forcing her to eat anyway. But she made up her mind to finish what she started and she did. But at the long run, she vomited everything out anyway. I for one, I love to do the same stuff everyday. Eat the same dish and do the same routines daily. I just don't like to try something new I haven't planned for unless I'm in the mood for an adventure. Which I know is a bad habit and I'm trying to desist from that. All I'm trying to say is, try to move out of your comfort zone every once in a while to explore your other potentials, else you wouldn't know your full capabilities. You could try joining the salsa group, drama group, dancing group, creative arts group, script writing group, karate group, hiking group, meditating group, gaming group, sport group, music group etc. It could be online or however way you prefer it to be. Just engage!

Convo II

Chris: Hello, How you doing?
Sally: Yeah!, I'm doing okay. Nothing much!.
Chris: I'm also doing fine. Thanks for asking!.
Sally: Alright!
Chris: Black out here. Super bored.
Sally: Alright!.
Chris: Just listening to Stonebwoy - Tomorrow.
Sally: Oh okay!.
Chris: Cause I've gotten to a stage in my life where I think I'm all alone with no one to really help me out. And I can relate better with this song.
Sally: You should go for therapy.
Chris: It's too expensive.
Sally: Alright!. Find someone to talk to then.
Chris: Sometimes I think I get this feeling because Hilda doesn't give me the attention I deserve. She doesn't even know my goals, to talk of going the extra mile of encouraging me to achieve them.
Sally: I'm not that someone, am I?. Cause I've got a lot on my plate at the moment as well.
Chris: And there is too much pressure at home. Which makes it difficult for me to rely on anyone for help cause they are even looking up to me themselves.
Sally: Can we talk later?
Chris: At least I know the source of my problem. All I have to do is fine a suitable solution not to get anyone hurt in the process including myself.
Sally: Hey, are you okay?
Chris: I think I know what to do now. Thanks so much for the listening ear. Grateful.
Sally: Huh!

Convo

Chris: So if you check up on me, what will happen?
Sally: Why are you making it sound like a responsibility?.
Chris: You see, you couldn't answer the question.
Sally: It spoils nothing if you decide to check up on me everyday expecting nothing in return.
Chris: See the way she has turned this around on me now. But it also spoils nothing if you decide to say hello as well. After all friendship is not a one-sided affair.
Sally: But sincerely, I see no problem with it when one decides to do the checking up while the other does the receiving only.
Chris: Exactly!. Until table turns and someone you love becomes the receiver only. There you would understand.
Sally: Bra, please let's end this before it turns into a proposal. Thank you.
Chris: See you!. The truth hurts. You saying hello as well spoils nothing.
Sally: Ma guy make steady!. This forceful way of getting me to say hello has got to stop.

Phone Call

Kimberly: Vicky, have you realised Jeff has this irritating attitude. Whereby you will be talking to him and he would be upset minded; replying you with sounds and gestures. If he were to be busy, I would have no problem at all. But here is the case he would either be chatting on phone, playing game or watching a movie. At least, have a little decency to pause, listen to whatever I have to say, respond and continue, I told him. And he replied with a nod; busily typing on his phone. I mean we all have things to do but you don't see us acting the way he does. At first, I was giving him the benefit of the doubt that maybe he needs his privacy. But here is the case, he does that all the time. Sometimes I feel like taking the pillow and whacking his head with it. He's really irritating me these days. And the most annoying part is, when he is the one talking to you, he wants your full attention. I don't know why I'm over-reacting on this small issue. I think there's something about him that just puts me off these days. He is so self-centered of late. Every time, me this, me that. Even his," how are you doing?" has strings attached. He bothers not to even check up on me and when I do, he will be giving me straightforward​ replies. He thinks the world revolves around him. When he is happy, everyone should be happy. When he is sad, no one dares bring their "noisy self" around him. See the way he's making me talk too much and he's peacefully on his bed right this moment watching a movie. If you like lemme ask him, what's up?, he would reply, nothing much. So when will there be something much to talk about?. Lol!. Such an annoying boy.

Switches

1. Tito: Tony, I'm telling you the truth, I don't think she really needs me around whenever she is down, cause all she does is ignore me the whole time I'm around her. She doesn't even try to look my way for two seconds. All she does is concentrate fully on watching her movie while she replies pop up messages from time to time, so I eventually leave her room. At that moment, I see it to be the right thing to do cause she barely replies me when I talk to her and she keeps talking to herself the whole time I'm around. Which actually makes me look stupid when I reply her thinking she is talking to me, only to end up looking like a complete jerk being totally ignored by her. And as late as 13:00, she is still all curled up in bed covered with blanket since morning. I mean, how does that make me feel when I'm around her. And she just wouldn't listen to anything I say.  Hopefully, someone comes over and she switches to a different person after a minute or two. I know only one word is echoing in your ears as I am raising this allegation. And the word is "useless". And that is exactly how I feel during such situations. Cause if she wouldn't mind me, why should I stick around to shrink the little happiness I have left. Then a month later, she would tell me she still needed me around regardless how much she ignored me. But what about what I also needed. Which is just a little cooperation and it isn't much to ask of, is it?. I mean, me cheering her up is 97% impossible until someone else comes over then she lightens up. So then what was my use being around if spending five hours or more with her changed nothing and someone walks in two minutes and changes everything. Why shouldn't I walk away to enable her heal faster if clearly I'm the problem?.

Time to Time

Gyan: I have no problem with my girl talking to herself from time to time. But it gets​ scary when we are in the room and all of a sudden she bursts out; talking to herself. I'm just curious on how your reaction would be like if you are in a room with someone and they keep talking aloud but to themselves. An extreme case scenario is when she keeps talking to herself for five minutes non-stop. Ignoring any comments I make on the subject she's talking about. She acts as if she is in a trance, ignoring me totally, but the funny part is, she is able to reply a message whenever one pops up during such moments. Usually I don't really care if someone talks to themselves occasionally. Cause the ones I have been experiencing are mostly undertone and self-related, and do not require any external opinions​, which is very unlike hers. Hers is loud, irritating if you're​ busy doing something important and it sounds more like an enquiry which demands a response. I'm propelled to reply and then after she ignores me, I realise I'm not the one she's talking to. I think an example will help, let's say she is watching a movie and someone she knows pops up, she would burst out saying; "Isn't this Angelina Jolie?, It looks like her, I think I have watched her acting a similar role in a different movie but I have forgotten the title". Wouldn't you have responded if you were in the same room with her?. Now you see I'm not just nagging.

While Waiting

Flipper: She just walked out on me. And now I'm all alone in her room waiting on her to return. It's been 1hour 17minutes now and she still isn't back. On a normal day, I would get pissed and leave cause I wouldn't understand why she would leave without saying a word and expect me to be waiting for her when she returns. I use to think that it usually wasn't her fault and that she tries her best to hurry back as soon as she is done with whatever she goes out to do. Until I met her outside one time, just standing there doing nothing while I was inside waiting for her. For a moment, I thought she was waiting on someone so I was waiting to see whom it was. Until I realised, she loses track of time unconsciously. She doesn't notice how long she keeps you waiting unless she is the one waiting. She just stood there doing nothing, then the moment she saw me coming she knew from my facial expression that I had waited for her for quite a while. Yet her facial expression didn't look remorseful. It looked like, "where is he going looking all angry as if I owe him an apology?" kind of face. She then asked if I am leaving and I reply yes and she said okay. The kind of okay that makes you feel as if you are the one with the problem. I guess you don't share my pain. It's alright then. Thanks for reading.

Just Don't

I am experiencing those kind of moments where you have a lot to say but putting it into words is the problem. Whereby I don't want to sink myself into the whole situation or else I may end up weeping an unworthy weeping. Yet I want to deal with the situation once and for all to get it out of my system. But then I realise the person I'm pouring my heart to keeps on laughing from time to time. I ask why they are not acting concerned and they reply that it's because of the way I'm conveying the message. I inquire about how exactly I'm conveying the message and they say I just don't sound like what I'm saying is actually serious and it's like I'm making it all up to cover up the actual story. And they conclude by saying that, if I don't wanna share is fine but I shouldn't make it look as if they are not ready to listen or they are not taking me serious. So then I say it's okay to cut everything short and forget about everything until I'm all by myself again, on my bed and trying to sleep. Then the feeling revisits me. It suspends my sleep and takes hold of my mind, which makes me wanna scream out the pain. But the pain clots in my heart, making it uneasy to lie down on my belly. And then I realise the essence of people having a dairy. But that isn't just my thing. For me, I suck it all in until the day it burst out. By then, I would have lost my reason of caring. Then I wouldn't care of the outcome.

Both Ways

Chiesa: I love that my girlfriend tells me she needs closure sometimes. It makes me feel wanted, which is a very good feeling; I tell you. Cause if it's mostly one way then I would be thinking; I am the problem. But now, I don't have to stress myself over that anymore. At least, she should be the one doing the tickling and harassing every once in a while to spice things up a little. It shouldn't be always me trying to get her in the mood. The only situation is that she doesn't really like me touching her when she isn't in the mood. In fact, she doesn't like touching in general. I used the word, situation, cause it's not a problem. Anyways, enough about whatever I'm talking about. I wonder how I even brought this topic up. I guess its one of those things. Later then!.

Sick

Lysa: I have no other​ alternative but to fall sick just to get his attention. I know this sounds very lame but that's the only option I've tried so far, that actually got him close to me all day. I want to have that experience with him again, and falling sick is the only way I can think of. I did try other options by getting him the continuation of his favourite series; Killing Eve. But that only got him around me for 35minutes tops and that wasn't enough. I've also tried being pissed with him like a thousand times for no reason; pestering him, "we need to talk". He came over so quickly the last time; I didn't have anything saying, cause I hadn't planned out what to say. The other time too, he outstretched the "we need to talk" period; before I knew it, we were talking again. I've also tried buying us tickets for stage play shows and cinema movies as well, but I'm mostly broke. The one time, I remember buying us tickets, he was sleepy all night; which slowed down the night for me. On numerous occasions, I've told him my troubles, shortcomings, issues, hindrances, secrets and many more to get him all up in my business but he hardly shares his, and he's mostly busy doing one thing or the other. As you can see, I have thought this through and I'm planning of falling sick this weekend. I would just have to hope that he is not tied down with his schedule and that I would be able to tell him to come over with a movie so we watch together. After all, he is travelling for a whole month next weekend and this would be one memory I decide to clinge unto and make the most out of. You can call it an obsession or craziness or whatever, I would still do it anyway. So keep your thoughts to yourself. #Smiles

Crazy Charley III

Ortega:  I just missed Melissa's call again. I've decided to go get a pack of condom from a pharmacy, which is just opposite her hostel. I am on my way now. I think I just bypassed Kofi; the guy Candy was talking about. He is wearing boxers and singlet, I mean, who does that?. And he is headed towards Melissa's room. All of a sudden, my immune system has frozen​. It feels more like a heartbreak. Unconsciously, I called Melissa, I told her that I am in her hostel now and that the uber driver delayed. I'm watching him knock on the door from a distance. Candy opens the door; she is also wearing a super short silky slightly transparent purple nightgown. The look on her face shows she is highly impressed how quickly Kofi came over. I think she has seen me. And she is saying something like; Melissa, your boy is coming with his jeans and cardigan. What was he thinking?. (And they all burst out laughing). "I beg, let him be", Melissa responded. That boosted my moral, cause my intestines were pulling me to turn around and leave. Candy: "Kofi, you can join I and Jones, cause the way I am on heat, I'm pretty sure one person wouldn't be enough. So I would be in the middle of both of you. Feel free to hold and touch wherever you desire, but no intromission". Ortega: That is the weirdest thing I've ever heard. They have already watched the first scene, which was 45mimutes non-stop. So Melissa is in pretty good shape and I am yet to get heated up. But she is all over me already and that really feels good; with her perfume and body texture. I have taken off my jeans and top, positioned myself properly and I think I am all set now. As you can see, I have to go, Bye.

Crazy Charley II

Ortega: This is the second time Melissa is calling my line. But I haven't gotten my words right so I cannot pick up. If I pick up and tell her I'm here already, I would look very desperate, and I have too much ego to allow that happen. I can hear sounds from her room, lemme get closer once again. Melissa's room: "Rita speaking; "Ortega isn't picking up?. I told you there was something wrong with the way you conveyed the message. And that guy has too much ego that he may decide to come, yet come late so that he wouldn't look desperate, as most guys wouldn't mind coming straight away." Candy speaking; "I don't know why you are stressing over this boy, Melissa. Kofi, is just right on the top floor, call him. You know he has a thing for you, and stop waiting for this Ortega guy, whose slowing down our movements here". Melissa speaking; "Lemme try his number one last time". (I quickly switched my call waiting mode off, then I called Irene.) Ortega: Hello Irene, do you think it's necessary to take a condom if a girl calls you to come watch a porn collection with her roommates and their guys present?. Irene: "You always call to get tips for your ladies. I'm not a lady as well right?. #Anor bore!. Copy a scene on a pendrive, we'll also watch together some other time. Back to the question; take a condom, it would make her know you came prepared. Even if you don't take one, she has one ready for you from the guys present. Just take one, else you would look like a slow guy". Ortega: Immediately, I switched airplane mood on and off, just to prevent me from replying Irene, cause I had no reply for her. Melissa is calling back again, got to go, bye.

Crazy Charley I

Ortega: Charley, Melissa just called that she has got a whole collection of porn, so I should come let's watch. I'm​ a little confused right now cause it sounds too good to be true, even though, I'm dying to go. It's like my shadow has taken the lead; leaving my body behind. Everything within me; including my spine is pushing me to go and stop wasting time. But hold on, what if it's a trap?. Okay, I can go over and pretend as if I was already coming for the earpiece I left with her last week, just to see if she ain't messing around with me. Besides, I wouldn't even know how to tell my study group peeps about what I'm off to do, and I'm used to telling them the truth. That isn't really my problem now. My problem is that, I didn't bring a penny to group study meeting today. If I borrow and take uber all the way to her hostel and it's just one of those things, I would definitely be pissed. I'm sure you get what I mean, when I say, "one of those things". If not, figure it out then!. Why do I always have to spoon feed you with information that are obvious to tell?. Anyways, what was I saying?. Errmmm, as we're speaking now I'm almost at her door though. Oh!, so you were thinking I was waiting for your opinion on this matter?. Nope, I wasn't. Because, you're a boy and I'm a boy, so obviously our thinking would be the same. Lemme call Irene and get a lady's view on this matter. It's not too late to turn around and go back to my hostel, since I haven't knocked on her door yet. Wait a minute!, another guy just bypassed me to knock on her door. Her roommate opened and he entered. The lights are off, and it looks as if there is a projected video on the wall. Let me go closer!. I can hear sounds but it's not very audible. It's just a woman moaning; sounds more like porn. Okay, she's calling my number. Got to go, bye.

Betweener

Spike: Become close friends before lovers. Austin: What if you have nothing to talk about cause she already has a guy she talks to?. Spike: I don't really get the question. Austin: I mean, she mostly finds it easier talking to someone else either than me. Spike:  Meaning, it's not that she doesn't communicate, she does, but someone else is always the first person to know?. Austin: Not exactly so, but you can put it that way. Spike: Please put it in the exact context it looks like. Austin: Have you ever had a heart break?. Spike: No Please!. Austin: Then you wouldn't understand. Kindly answer the question in the way you understood it, I would be able to relate perfectly. Spike: Can you confidently say that you've actually fallen in love?. Austin: No please!. Spike: That was an obvious answer per your attitude. So, do you listen when she talks to you?. If yes, do you help her out when required of you?. Austin: Please, is that a prerequisite, before someone decides to communicate with you?. Anyways, lemme give you an example to clarify the question. For example: "Hello, I'm very fine. I will be going to the library, after which I may visit a friend. I also have a meeting in Athens evening. In case of any updates, I will let you know though". Spike: Oh okay!, So then give me an example of her usual replies. Austin: Hello, I'm fine. Nothing Much. Spike: Tell her to give details then. Austin: "Will you pay me?", She replies.

Instead

Jake: Charley, I don't really have a problem. I would make any sacrifice just for her sake, if only it wouldn't be beyond my capability. Notwithstanding the fact that, a lot of things she asks for are beyond my capability; I would still give it a try anyway. Sometimes, I laugh at all the dump things I've done in the name of love. None of them went to waste; truth be told. She gave me back so much love I could ever wish for. So much that, she sometimes came over just to cheer me up; imagine that. Other times, she would come over cause she was bored. Whatever the reason was for her coming over, it all worked together for my good. The only times she never came over, were the times I would pester her to come. I mean, who would want to come?. Now we are world's apart and I miss her everyday. I would not let her know though, cause what difference would it make?. She would only credit herself at the end of the day and I have too much ego to contain that. I would keep my mouth shut even if it kills me. I know the feeling would eventually die out with time. On a more serious note, I do miss her a lot. And I think I have to give her a call and see how things go. I may take a bus to go see her, depending on how things play out. She's really unpredictable when it comes to things like these. I think I'm getting my hopes up too much, which makes the chances of me getting my heartbroken very high.