Sunday 29 September 2019

I'm Sorry III

Heavenly Father, is me again. This year hasn't been easy, but You've been there as always from the beginning. There's been a whole lot of ups and downs, happiness and sadness, joy and sorrow, rejoicing and grieving, but You've been my refuge and fortress, my peace and hiding place. When I remember how I started this year, thinking everything would work according to plan, and how certain things happened out of the blue. All I do is thank You for being there when I couldn't share my pain with anyone, but You knew and You never turned a blind eye. Cause I've experienced how short term human love can turn out to be; when one moment they pledging their allegiance, and the next moment they leave you hanging. Even when they ain't bold to tell you to your face, yet implying they don't really care how you survive. And through it all, even days when I have mood swings and other times when I'm full of myself, You still don't give up on me. You've been patient with me, waiting on me to involve You in whatever step I take. You just know when to step in and when to give me space. What have I done to deserve you?. Entirely nothing!. Yet You keep on showing me such love and mercy that I don't deserve. In my thinking, I know I'm not worthy of Your love, cause I already have difficulty confiding when I'm broken, yet You help me up anyway. My trust issues may get the best of me sometimes, but You don't allow that get in our way. I thank you for every single thing You've done for me this year. I'm so much grateful that words cannot describe. Some of us, all we have is You. Friends failed us & Love broke us, but We know in Your time, all things shall be made beautiful again.

Thursday 26 September 2019

I'm Sorry II

I've noticed how black mothers have this interesting traits of child upbringing. Whereby, they instill fear into their child, by using a different figure like the child's dad or making them believe in ghosts.

Wednesday 25 September 2019

I'm Sorry


Chance: In my previous write ups, I've stressed enough about love. How it has lost its value and depth, cause of our misuse and shallow understanding of it. Take a couple of minutes to think through, if all the loving we do is not based on conditions. But love goes beyond condition; limitless. The other misused phrase, "I'm sorry". Per my statistics I've come to a conclusion that we mostly say, "I'm sorry", particularly to end prolonging matters and not that we actually feel remorse for what we did. Should the same instance happen, we would hurt the person all over again and still end up saying, "I'm sorry". So then I ask, what's the need for saying I'm sorry, if we don't regret our actions?. If we wouldn't retract our actions if given the 2nd chance. Sometimes we don't know why we say we are sorry until we are asked, "sorry for what reason?". Then we reflect and realize, we are not actually sorry for hurting the other person, but rather sorry for not feeling sorry for the pain we putting them through. Sometimes we may step on someone's toes and say sorry. But should we reverse time, we would still step on their toes and say sorry again. With that in perspective, it tells you, we are not actually sorry for stepping on their toes, but we are sorry they had to be the one. And that has also killed the true intention of saying, I'm sorry. So now, if someone says I'm sorry, we cannot really tell the motive behind the reason why they are saying so. And that has devalued the phrase, "I'm sorry". I'm sorry only settles things but doesn't fix things.