Certain responses are annoying

I won't beat around the bush with this one. I really dislike those uncertainty responses or whatever they are called. Especially when you say you hungry and I ask what food you would eat and you go like, "I don't know" or "Anything". I just don't like myself in the position when I have to do the thinking for you. When it gets to certain things, it should be easier stating clearly what you want. It's allowable if I ask what you want as a birthday present and you say "Anything from your heart". But it becomes annoying when you repeat that yearly. Cause all I want is options to choose from. All I'm saying is, some responses are generally used and annoying if you say what every girl says. Lol, I know I'm not really making sense but sometimes responses like, 'Surprise me", is very much encouraging. It's as if, you always hear someone tell you, "You are apple of my eye" and I also repeat that same phrase on a special occasion. I mean it wouldn't really get to you as compared to something I composed with memories you can relate with.

You can call this my confession

I know you quite aware I have been acting strangely lately. Sometimes I'm rude and other times too sweet, which makes it seem like I have been acting up. So I decided to try clarify things today. I'm not very good with words so please bare with me if you cannot make sense out of some of the things I write. First of all your company means the world to me. The times we chat on phone and meet up somewhere private and talk non-stop makes my day every single time. And sometimes, all I do is think about such moments anytime I don't hear from you for so long a time, especially during my lecture hours. I know you have realized that I keep staring at you during a conversation that requires my response and I would be long gone in my thoughts each time and you would be thinking I'm not paying attention to you. But the truth is, I would be just thanking God I met you and how beautiful you look. I love you to death.

I know the fault isn't from me

Hello Ines, are you there?. As I was saying I just don't understand Portia anymore. I mean all along she made me think that the more effort I put in, the more she takes me seriously as well. Cause from the beginning it was as if we were playing mind games. And now I've really decided to take us seriously as she expected, but is as if she shows no interest at all. The more I push closer the more she shoves me off. I even bought her jewelry on Valentine but then she was giving me attitude and lying about her whereabouts, so I just decided to sleep it off. Now I know for sure the fault isn't from me, as I was thinking all along. It's just the way she is. She may be having commitment issues. Cause it's like one minute she is all in and the next minute her mind is somewhere else. Hence, I have decided to let things go and just live my life, besides I had a life before meeting her. If she comes around again fine, if not, then so be it.

how would you describe your life

I'm only asking these questions out of curiosity, no hard-feelings. I only wanna know if you okay with the kind of life you are living. I mean, do you wake up early every morning with zeal and eagerness to get things sorted out as planned or you just lay in bed without any cause for rising until duty calls. Come on, you are aware of the type of life you are living, and I'm only asking if that is the life you wish for. And if you are in line with the goals or targets you've set up for yourself in life?. Better still, do you have any goals at all?. What of daily goals?, or anything goes?. What of priorities?. Do you have any expectations you are living up to?. Whom or what do you wanna become?. Is it achievable or its a fantasy?. Have you put any measures in place to achieving that?. Then we would look back one day and smile, cause we also have a story to tell. Remember, we only live once. And time, they say, waits for no man. It's not too late. Get a life!

A little toughness will do

Before you start reading this writing of mine, please don't take this personal or furthermore take this the wrong way. This is me hitting the nail on the head. Truth be told, I cannot come to glimpse with the reason why you easily get sucked in to any cute or nice guy that comes your way. Who is well-versed with constructing his sentences appropriately. But one thing you fail to notice is when they are done charming their way into being a part of your life, they are not very cautious of the things they say anymore. And you end up getting yourself hurt, more or less perturbed. Okay, so I wanna know what really makes you that vulnerable. And the type of guys you are into. It could be that you don't really hold yourself high-esteem and that makes you easy to prey on. All they need to do is make you feel special on several occasions and that is it, you are soaked in; trapped in their shell. Just a little toughness would do.

One thing is for sure

Time will tell. Guess you tired of hearing this. Yeah right!, I'm also tired of saying it. But I'm always trying to make a point since you keep forgetting. So it isn't really my fault, come to think of it. I don't have anything in mind as at now but you should know that time will surely tell. You can keep doing what you doing. But one thing is for sure, things will never remain the same. Cause time changes and people with it, so just be cautious of how you treat people now you have it all. Tomorrow isn't yours to decide what it comes along with.

Another Step Further

Help me out here Lord. I'm confused, knowing not where to go and whom to turn to. Unnecessary, unwanted and disgraceful things befall me. Which makes me tend to elude my focus, responsibilities and aspirations. I wish someone would see through me and offer a helping hand but anytime someone tries to get too close, I shove them off. I cannot account for all my actions but I do know that I'm not mostly myself. I seem to perceive things differently sometimes. Sometimes I take little things too seriously and other times I overlook serious stuffs that can cost me, of which I'm willing to bear the consequence. In my heart, I yearn for You, Lord and I know very well with you closer, everything will be fine but little do I take time to study my Bible and fellowship with You. I always seem to be in a hurry but result in having other priorities that benefits me not. I intend to seek You now more than ever and diligently await Your response cause I cannot take another step further in this new month without your guidance. Jesus take the wheels.