Issues of Life

Juliette: I think I just got my heart ripped into two. I felt it cracking open, but I said to myself that it would patch up in no time. Unfortunately, on Wednesday, I felt it being ripped open with such force. Who could possibly be doing this to me?. I guess I gave the person too much time space even when all hope seemed lost. It was quite obvious how tables turned. Another had taken over my place, I could read between the lines, yet I didn't want to believe so. I kept fighting for my place, but they showed no sign of coming back. I bet this was a clear sign I had to walk away. Now look at the damage I caused to my heart. How many months would it take for it to get stitched back to normal?. Don't blame me if I have trust issues due to past experiences. Cause I have had enough of fairytales. Now I'm living in the reality of matters. No more false alarms & hopes. I think I need time to myself, I have new foundations to build and constructions to be put in place. No one is allowed to take my heart on a rollercoaster drive anymore, It's been through enough. It needs some space to reasssemble itself, for a new lifestyle based on lessons learnt. No more making silly mistakes and allowing people too much control over my heart, cause they may decide to pull the plugs anytime without prior notice. Indeed, love is blind, they say. No, you don't feel my pain, cause my pain is indescribable. I need no comforting, all I need is time to heal and a year would do. No more stressing myself. I'm on a one year leave from any form of committment.