Conditions XII

Jorgie: I wonder why this usually happens to me. I'm still trying to get my head round it. Its quite strange but everytime my girlfriend's name pops up in my head, or I miss her, or start thinking about her and I dial her number, there's always a 70% chance of her line being busy. I've tried and tested, and usually it's true. I actually thought it was coincidence at first, until I realized it wasn't anymore. I don't really mind whom she's talking to, it doesn't bother me at all. What does is the fact that, me missing her always crashes with her line being busy. I mean, I don't really get it. What does that mean?, or it doesn't mean anything?. I think there's something to it that I'm not getting. Help me out here for a minute, stop reading and think. So how would you deduce this if it were you?. What would you think is the reason or cause of this usual coincidence?. Would you do something about it or would you tell her or you would just discard it as unimportant as I always do?. I'm serious though, I need an answer.

Conditions XI

Houston: I know she doesn't kiss and tell. Yet I wonder why she still hides stuff from me. I mean, to her it may be unnecessary sharing, but it may mean the world to me. It doesn't bother me that she keeps things from me, it actually hurts me that she sees nothing wrong with it. What makes her act that way?, I keep on asking myself that, cause I've done everything possible to make her feel free to share anything or do things in the open even when I'm around, but it seems she still has the thought of me, "acting up", in case I see it or she tells me. I guess you don't get my point; lemme give you a scenario. "In case your man is chatting on the phone and unconsciously has this faint smile on his face, and the moment you sit next to him to tell him something, he either opens up another application or turns off his phone's screen, wouldn't it feel strange?". Exactly my point, so now you get me right?. And at that instance, it wouldn't bother you that he may be chatting with another girl, but the first question you would ask is, why what are you hiding?. And the second question would be, so what's wrong if I see it?. And now your problem would be, why he doesn't feel comfortable chatting with another girl in your presence but he feels so free doing that in your absence?. Cause for me, I wouldn't want my guy not feeling comfortable replying his messages or talking on the phone with another girl, in my presence. Cause if he can do that in my absence, he should be able to do that in my presence, or else, he's a playboy. I wouldn't advice that he hides his phone or walk away from me when he gets a call unless it's work related. I would love him to tell me after every call whom he spoke with and whom that person is. I just would love to know, isn't a must.

Conditions X

Reuben: I decided to stop writing, since my inspiration to write was shredded to pieces. But a work mate told me today how she could relate with every script I wrote, and how talented she thinks I am. What inspired me most about the stuffs she said, was how she said it, and the fact that we weren't even friends. So to all those who realized my absence and called all my numbers to check up on me, I'm grateful. To all those who thought about me for a moment, and carried on with their lives, I'm grateful. To all those who waited for me to come online before asking of my whereabout, I'm grateful. To all those who realized my absence yet couldn't do anything about it, I'm grateful. To all those who called my number and couldn't reach me, I'm grateful. To all those who meant to call but couldn't, I'm grateful. To all those who didn't even realize my absence, I'm grateful. Sometimes, its those you least expect that comes through for you when you need someone to hold unto. Other times you're left all by yourself, even by those that say they love you, and you begin to doubt their love. These few days made me realize that I have no friend at all. I mean, I have people I chat with and all, but someone to call a friend, I don't have. The truth hurts, but some things; if you know, you know. I don't blame anyone actually, neither would I point fingers, cause I knew for sometime now that I didn't really have a friend. Apart from work, school and church mates; I'm basically alone. So when loneliness striked me after my phone got missing: I knew I had to endure that pain, cause no one would come looking for me, unless I reach out to them, and let them know the situation I was in. All I received was bashing from family. There and then; pain, hurt, sorrow and grief rubbed me up and handed me over to moodiness. It's a sad distin, when you are all alone. It makes you develop bitterness, carelessness and dislike for people. Yet its a cycle everyone goes through in life to build them up and mold them for a better future. Don't give up on yourself cause you think you have no one. You do have someone, you just haven't realized that someone.

Condtions IX

I guess you've never had someone touch you in a way that made you lose conciousness

Conditions VIII

Nueki: I realized how old vibes rekindle when you meet old folks. I mean, it was fun coming back to Ghana after all these years of staying Abroad, due to education and work. I'm now have such a lovely gorgeous boyfriend, Austin, who owns his own apartment and car in New York. He's such an adorable person. We were still in touch when I stepped foot in Ghana. He's also a Ghanaian by the way, he just has a different set of eyes; charming as most people will call it. I kept him updated on everything I did, except the part that I met up with my ex, Alvin. Cause I knew he would freak out over nothing. It wasn't a planned one actually, we just happen to meet at a friend's birthday bash on one freaky friday. I saw him pass by but wasn't so sure it was him so I called out his name, just in case he was the one. Okay, that's a lie, truth is, he heard I was on a holiday trip to Ghana so he hit me up on twitter to meet up when I do, and I was like, "why not?". So on my way to my friend's birthday bash I gave him the direction and time and he happen to show up right on time. As soon as we met, we exceeded the usual hugging seconds. I mean, from personal experience, is always advisable to avoid all ex's or people you've had a fling with, as soon as you enter into a serious relationship. Cause there's always this confidence they have around you, that makes them want to relate with you as they use to way back. Especially when they meet you at a party, drinkup, get-together. Those kind of places gives them the edge to rekindle past feelings, you two shared. They could touch you in a certain way they use to do that made you lose consciousness, that you miss so much. In my case, I remembered nothing about Alvin, except his smiles. I have no idea why we broke up either. To be Continued.

Conditions VII

Jill: I heard about Kwesi and Ama's breakup and it really got to me, cause they were perfect together. Now I know for sure that people praising you for looking good together, doesn't guarantee the success of your relationship. Looking good together says nothing actually; friends, twins and siblings look good together these days. The reason I'm saying this is that, sometimes friends listen to people's comments of them looking good together, to decide to date, and it ends up destroying their friendship. So it's a little silly if we clinch unto looking good together to make certain decisions. Knowing each other for so long doesn't also guarantee a successful marriage. Cause I had a friend who dated for 10years and after 3months of getting married to the person, divorced him. Another also met his woman when he traveled to America for holidays. They began chatting and after 6months of knowing each other decided to get married and have been happily married since. So for me, I believe in finding your right pair/ soul mate, rather than confusing yourself someone is the right pair for you because they know you so well or you two look good together. These two reasons doesn't guarantee a successful marriage. God is the match maker and He uses people to link people up, so simple, don't complicate things. To be sure, he/she is the one, pray to the match maker (God) for a sign to prove they are the right pair for you, and you would know for sure. But the decision is always yours to make.

Conditions VI

Henry: Of all my experiences at work this is weirdest of them all. For a moment I thought it was a set-up, but after a while I realized it was no joke. Truth be told, I haven't had this experience of a lady interested in me for a longer period of time and still persisting to be with me. Mostly, after a day of giving them negative vibe, they are on the move. But this particular lady at work, took my number after helping her out on her work proposal for her boss. We started chatting afterwards, regular chats that sometimes felt boring even replying, all of a sudden took a swift diversion. We started sharing opinions on things I had no idea we would ever talk about. On few occasions, we saw eye to eye but most of the time we argued on various topics, which was actually fun cause we never personalized anything we said to each other during the conversation. After 2months, she called me to her desk one early morning to assist her on something, which I did. We then decided to take a tea break and during that she told me she loves me. And she knows she's 3years older than I am, yet we could still make it work. Judging from her clothes, phone, shoes, status; I told her I cannot cause she was on another level. Yet she insisted she would help me get there too. She bought me breakfast and lunch that day, which made me feel bad. She has done so much for me during this short period of knowing each other; she's always ready to help. She's too nice to be said no to, but dating her would be risky. I'll miss our friday night outings.

Conditions V

Maxi: It's been a while I put pen on paper just to write my plans for the day. I wonder what my new year resolutions were. All I do these days is concentrating more on solving my problems and executing my responsibilities, in order to have my peace of mind. And that strays me from concentrating on my morning devotions, and even during church service and work meetings. What I think about mostly are investment strategies to grow the little money I have. And my sweet wife, who debits my account at every least chance she gets. Last week, I woke up to her noise of me owing her. Simply because she took our kid to the hospital with uber, so she needs the money she used for transport back. Men, keep this in mind; "Every woman loves money. Whether she has enough or not, she just finds delight in spending yours. Sometimes, their reasons for taking your money makes no sense but you just have to comply, for your own safety. You always have to budget for miscellaneous, cause you would be paying for things you didn't budget for, impromptu. And that is the beauty of it."

Conditions IV

Antonia: I guess we both saw this was gon happen at a point, cause this was the path we chose, unintentionally, yet we did. You sacrificed your time and attention for me, but at that point I was into another, so your advances towards me never maneuvered it's way to project memories of you on my mind. I still did think of you every once in a while and wondered what you were up to. The time I was enlightened to the fact that you were into me; you were over me. Cause I was curious as to whether it was true, sacrificed my time and leisure for you but it was unfruitful, your heart was long gone. And now, here we are once again, blaming each other. That if the other had put in just a little more effort, we would have been together. But how late is it now?. If we cannot make it happen then let's drop this conversation. I guess all we're good at; is giving excuses. Excuses that profited nothing at the end. No more if I had and if you hadn't conversations.

Conditions III

Today we would love to hear some of the reasons why people are into their partners. I bet you are interested to know as well. Alright then, let's dive right into it.

Conditions II

Yaw:  We are tired of this "men are this", "women are that" noise you people are always making. Charley, we make wild dey hustle sake of our aspirations for a brighter future, you people dey here dey talk nonfa. Please if you have nothing to say to bring progress into our lives, kindly keep your thoughts and comments to yourself. Afia: Okay, so back to the topic, I think as humans, our love is based strictly on conditions. No one can love unconditionally except God. Sam: Please we are tired of this book knowledge. Afia: Let me make my point before you interrupt me please. Think about it carefully; we love because the person is pretty, handsome, tall, cute, stout, well-shaped, fair, dark, good character, superb courtesy, fantastic IQ, undoubtedly gifted, sharp, good kisser, relationship expert, good with words, smart, loyal, friendly, intelligent, eloquent, hardworking, good cook and many more. Ask yourself if you would love the person after an accident and they became crippled or take the story of Job for instance. Sam: Please we get your point but no one is interested to hear more of what you have to say. Anyone else with a less predictable comment?

Conditions

Kwesi: Personally, I don't like tagging certain acts to a specific gender. Being it men are unfaithful or women are greedy, I see it not to be fair. My reason being that, you may hear a story about how men cheat on their wives. Regardless of how the woman steps in his shoes to provide for the family and all he does is stay home after losing his job, sleep and eat whilst the woman works her ass off for the family. And he still gets the gut to cheat on the woman, with a lousy reason that he is always all alone and lonely at home; the cheek of it. It's understandable if you hear such a story and blast the man for his callous actions. Then you would hear stories of women cheat on their husbands as well. Mostly, simply because of money or bed experience. Why don't they invest in their marriage, support and tune the man to be whom they want him to be?. Akua: I agree with you somehow, cause men cheat, women cheat. Sometimes, you would hear a story and blast a man for what he did with all your intestines, only to hear a woman do worse than that. Then you would now hear the women trying to make meaning out of what the woman did. Suddenly, acting all rational and trying to feel the woman's pain for her actions. Yet, if we are comparing men and women, who is a cheat, liar, unfaithful, ungrateful. I would choose a man on any day, due to past experiences and witnesses. That is a fact.

My Daily Prayer

Everyone: Thank you father for my life, my immediate family, my friends, my school, my work, my extended family, my colleagues, my church, my pastor, my doctor, my soul mate. For everyone who has passed through my life and has been a blessing or a lesson to me. I thank you for the food I eat, breath I take, car I take in and out, house I stay in. For the decisions I make, instincts, conscience, IQ. For the gifts and talents you've given me. I thank you Lord for removing destructions from my life, giving me a sense of direction, belonging, taste, desire, hope, peace of mind, comfort. In you I trust and surrender my day in and out activities unto You. May my life forever be a blessing and inspiration to others. May I never lack any good thing and never lose focus in life. To You alone be all the praise and worship, Amen.

I doubt

Blake: All I require of you is a clear conscience of me. I hope that isn't too much to ask of you. I know I wasn't of a good  behavior but you can attest to the fact that I have been of a good behavior of late.

If I Bore

Sometimes when we're pissed, we have this perception that, even our father cannot control us, how much more anyone else?. Other times we say that, when we get bored; is that bad, so no one should push us to the wall. Others times we don't even listen to what anyone says when we get bored/pissed. How silly it sounds now that I'm writing it down. But when someone else is bored we suddenly forget how we behave when we are bored, and we expect the person to hear us out. To me, this is typically selfishness cause it's like everyone around us should understand us when we are bored, and at the same time all the people around us should listen to us when they are bored. It just doesn't work that way. It doesn't even sound right now you are reading it as well, right?.

I wonder

Chris: I wonder why we have this perception that telling someone how we truly feel wouldn't change our situation anyway, so we stick to keeping, "however we feel", to ourselves. Especially when asked the question, "how are you?". We seem to give the normal routine answer, which is, "I'm fine or I'm okay", when we know very well we are not. I know, definitely that it depends on the one asking the question. Yet regardless the person asking, being it our husband/wife, girlfriend/boyfriend, we still don't tell them how we are truly feeling. It maybe that we are used to keeping stuffs to ourselves or saying I'm fine is our programmed answer. That is fine, but sometimes someone's soothing words is all we need. We might think we don't need anyone's condolence or pity or view or "mouth in our case", but it might be all we need to keep us going. 

It's a Hit Men III

Shanty: I'm a little confused as to how I'm going to leave my boyfriend. It isn't that I don't love him anymore, but I'm simply tired. I think he also wants to walk away from this relationship, but doesn't know how to, so I'm gonna help him out. He's been ignoring me of late, which is quite normal cause he wasn't really checking up on me anyway. Now, all he does is show me attitude for any little thing I do, making me feel bad unnecessarily yet flirting behind my back. I heard him tell another guy the one time, that he wouldn't put his heart at risk by putting all his eggs in one basket. Fortunately for me, I heard it for myself. Since then, I have been very observant, and I have realized he doesn't really care about me, and that he always puts his interest first. Now I also careless myself, I behave as if I don't have a boyfriend, I'm yet to make it official. I can choose to ignore him and never call him again, but I just want to have a clear conscience. So I'm planning of breaking up with him this weekend. My mind is made up.

It's a Hit Men II

Kuami: I just left my girlfriend and I'm very sad but I had to. I'm wondering why I would leave such a girl, who is every guy's dream girl. I'm very certain I wouldn't regret this decision I made. I realized I have been tolerating her for a couple of weeks now. She's really been on my nerves lately. She easily gets pissed of late, and every time this happens, she says, "Do you know how many men wish to be in your shoes?". Having heard that, even though I might be at fault, my heart starts to over-heat; missing numerous heartbeats. She started this attitude a year ago, when she begun sharing all the guys that hits on her with me. She gave them my number anytime they pressured her for her number. I was always swollen-headed until she stopped sharing. And begun being secretive about her whereabouts and her daily activities. And her excuse was that, she didn't like the way I reacted whenever she disclosed her engagements with other guys with me. She did tell me whenever I asked her about her routines though, yet leaves out many details. And if I don't ask, then she happily does her own thing. She didn't bother about my routines anymore, cause she didn't want me all up in her business either. She could be with a guy and I ask her, "what are you up to?", and her response would be, "nothing really?". And the more I ask questions, trying to get the details about her day, the more she chose to reply or change the subject. We've grown too far apart that we needed to go our separate ways and that is why we decided to break up eventually.

It's a Hit Men

Willy: I had this mischievous dream last night and I cannot really find my way out with this one. Lord knows I have had crazier dreams but this is just beyond my imagination. Its quite a simple dream though yet difficult to figure your way out of. I wish I could go back to sleep for a clarification. I do understand clearly what the dream meant. I have no doubt about that but my only problem is that I wish it wasn't so. I wish it were only my imagination playing tricks on me. I do have dreams a lot and I know which one to take seriously and which one to ignore and this isn't one to ignore. The dream depicted that my girlfriend is a witch.

A Conversatiion with Her Roommate II

Zita: Kwame, you are a really nice guy, the only problem I have with you now, is your dressing. I wonder what triggers you to wear what you wear. Too many jewelries; bracelet, necklace, ring. Honestly speaking, it's not cool, and please loosen up when you walk as well. No wonder, Akua wants to leave you. You're too serious in life but we don't see anything. At least, try and loosen up a little. The world is a bigger place, explore different clothes, don't stick to the same trend of oversized clothes. And I have realized you like eating the same kind of food every time. Truly speaking, you're a weird guy. Regardless of the fact that, you're smart, realist, lively and all, you lack in the obvious areas that a thug boy like you should be acquainted with. At first, I thought you were a Kumasi boy. In fact, I was really surprise to hear, you are a Tema boy. Even though, that made me like you the more. Me sticking around you, is obviously not all about the money. I wouldn't deny the fact that, I have grown to like you. Truth be told, the first time I saw you, I was disappointed in Akua. But getting to you, has made me understand her. Your swag, charisma, gentle arrogance, rough smile, annoying laughter, adorable dimple and super hilarious, makes me want to be around you the more. Your gestures alone is funny. Why am I being sweet all of a sudden?. Shaking my head!. 

A conversation With Her Roommate

Zita: As for you Kwame, I even pity you sometimes when I see you stressing over Akua. Don't you have any other girl in mind?. I suggest you have a back-up plan, cause from the look of things, Akua will soon leave you. On the real, the kind of chats she's been having on the phone with "God knows who", and you are here still thinking you may have done something wrong to deserve this. You've done nothing wrong ma guy, your time is just up. The sooner you advise yourself, the better. I'm telling you this not because I care, but it's just annoying seeing you here trying to fix something that is now beyond your grasp. Your trousers alone disqualifies you. But anyways, we do enjoy your pizza, sharwama, french fries from time-to-time. In fact, God bless you for those charitable deeds, your labor shall never be in vain. I pray you find someone that will love you inside out. I can do you a favor though. I can help you forget about Akua, if only you always get me what I ask for, which would definitely be within your grasp. Looking at the way you buy pizza for Akua consistently, getting nothing in return. I hope the money is from the right source?. If it's loan money too, this is the right time to confess. Don't worry, I'm here for you okay. You look tensed, smile a little. I know we do not have the chemistry yet and all but I'm willing to do you this favor and I'm only using you. When I am through with you, you would have a feel of what happiness is about. I can tell your definition for happiness hasn't been updated for a while now, since you haven't had a feel of happiness for sometime now. Don't worry, I'm here for you. I will open your eyes to the 21st century definition of happiness. Just avail yourself. I know just what to do. You look confused, come for a hug!. Smile, we have a brighter future ahead of us. (Laughing uncontrollably)

Always

Benny: I always have something on my mind, I bet you do too. But we choose what we want to say, in order not to step on toes. Not that we scared of anyone, but we were brought up well, hence we are watchful of our words. But in some cases, we decide to speak whatever pops up in our head, cause however we choose to say it, may offend someone. Depending on the extent of relationship we have with the person we're carrying the message across to. Other times, we speak in parables just to get whatever pain buried in our hearts, across to the offender. And it's never the same afterwards, cause scenarios like these bring about awkward moments; not knowing the way forward. The look on your face says it all. I'm not making sense right?. That clearly depicts how different your world is from mine. In my world, the people I meet are totally different. I cannot tell the pattern of people you meet though. With mine, they make it clear what their intentions are. They are straight-forward people. And I'm used to people like that, so when I meet people who beat around the bush, I just lose it. I'm still not making sense right?. Okay, so my point here is quiet simple. It's not that what we say don't make sense, it's just that we are communicating to the wrong people, since they cannot relate.

Issues of Life

Juliette: I think I just got my heart ripped into two. I felt it cracking open, but I said to myself that it would patch up in no time. Unfortunately, on Wednesday, I felt it being ripped open with such force. Who could possibly be doing this to me?. I guess I gave the person too much time space even when all hope seemed lost. It was quite obvious how tables turned. Another had taken over my place, I could read between the lines, yet I didn't want to believe so. I kept fighting for my place, but they showed no sign of coming back. I bet this was a clear sign I had to walk away. Now look at the damage I caused to my heart. How many months would it take for it to get stitched back to normal?. Don't blame me if I have trust issues due to past experiences. Cause I have had enough of fairytales. Now I'm living in the reality of matters. No more false alarms & hopes. I think I need time to myself, I have new foundations to build and constructions to be put in place. No one is allowed to take my heart on a rollercoaster drive anymore, It's been through enough. It needs some space to reasssemble itself, for a new lifestyle based on lessons learnt. No more making silly mistakes and allowing people too much control over my heart, cause they may decide to pull the plugs anytime without prior notice. Indeed, love is blind, they say. No, you don't feel my pain, cause my pain is indescribable. I need no comforting, all I need is time to heal and a year would do. No more stressing myself. I'm on a one year leave from any form of committment.

Vindictive Ex IV

Me: I and my fiancé came to an agreement that I would buy her credits to call me whenever she felt like calling. I would also try and keep up since calling isn't my thing, she gladly agreed. For a month, she was frequently calling but at particular times, I took notice of. So I decided to call at unexpected times, just out of the blue and her line would always be user-busy. I would ask her about it, but she would say it's probably the network. I knew she was definitely keeping secrets from me. I would ask her if there is anything I should know or anything at all on her mind but she would say, nothing. I would also intentionally call customer care at the times she usually calls me to see her reaction. She would ask me if it was Rosie I was chatting with, and I would say no. Why is Rosie the only person she asked if it was?. She wouldn't reply. I noticed she wanted to find a reason to lay me off, since the other guy she probably was spending much time on the phone with, was serious than I am. I mean, that is how she saw it. But I knew they were both using eachother to some extent but I wasn't sure how, so I decided not to draw conclusions. So for one week, she stopped calling me. And it was clear that her priorities had changed, she didn't really care how I would react if I found out anymore. I knew what she planned on telling me was, if I cared about her and her daily activities, she wouldn't have ended up with another. But the funny thing was, she didn't really care about mine either. She only cared about me when there was something to benefit from. So finally, she confirmed she had another guy on the side and she wanted me to know. I knew she wanted to know what my reaction would be, so she would base on that to make her case, so I didn't comment. She tried to come back after a month, but I told her I cannot marry a woman who keeps a whole relationship with another guy away from me, just to get back at me. Lord knows, the extent she might go when we get married. My mama after hearing my side of the story, got down of my car without saying a word, and went straight into her house and closed the gate. I then realized that my fiancé might have gone to my mama, to beg her to help convince me to take her back. Now I have my peace of mind. The Lord knows my future would be bright.

Vindictive Ex III

Me: My mama called me to come right over to her apartment this weekend, cause she didn't believe nor understand what she was hearing, "as rumor has it". I knew exactly what it was all about. I broke up with Stephanie, my fiancé, a month ago without telling her. I know how she might have felt, trying to defend me, that I wouldn't do such a thing without consulting her first. All I prayed about at church this Sunday morning, was that the Lord should help me with a very tangible reason why I decided to keep it from my mum up until now. I totally felt her pain, now that I began to think about it. I never really had the time to think about it this way, cause there was always a project to keep my mind off things, at work. I'm in front of her apartment now, still in my car in the driveway, thinking hard if any reason would pop up, cause trust me, I did have a reason why I didn't tell her. And I kept postponing telling her, after the week of the break up, and now it's a month. So I'm still in the car, caught up in my thoughts. My phone starts ringing, and is her on the phone. I pick up quickly without any hesitation, cause she might be watching, from whatever angle, I cannot tell, but I know my mama so well. "I have seen your car in the driveway for a while now, if you cannot come up here, I'm on my way down there", she said and hanged up. In less than three minutes, this woman is sitting right next to me in my car. She just stepped in and said, start talking, I'm all ears Kwadwo Danso. Anytime, she calls me by that name, I know this isn't the time for jokes or beating around the bush.  So I start talking, "Mama, I broke up with Awurama, cause I realised we weren't best of friends. In the sense that, she keeps things from me but she feels comfortable sharing it with this guy called Kwame. They do everything together, and is like I'm the 3nd party to know everything. Whenever I complain, she says, I don't like calling her but Kwame does all the time. So we then came to an agreement. To be continued.

Vindictive Ex II

Eve: I think that is Sharon standing in front of the super market. So what do I do now?. Do I go say hello or pretend I haven't seen her until she calls out my name?. If only she would remember me. You know these Junior High School mates and their new classy attitude they've downloaded from playstore or whereever that is from. Even if they remember you, they pretend they don't. I don't really know what they get from doing that; thus their business anyway. I'm sure they already know how karma feels like, they should just keep up with that attitude until they learn their lesson. You know, its funny when you meet such people one time and they pretend they don't know you. Eventually, you go your seperate ways but another time; the Lord being so good, you meet them again. This time around they're the one to call out your name, and you look up towards heaven and whisper; Thank You Lord. (Laugh out loud!) . Cause is like the ball is in your court now, "do as you wish".  That feeling is just so indescribable. But then before you react, you remember the teachings from Sunday School services, when little, not to repay evil for evil. So you wave and walk away. You still make sure you put on a facial expression that clearly says; don't dare try to bring up a conversation. (You feel me?!. Then that's about that.)

Vindictive Ex

Me: I'm about to lose it, just gimme a minute; count 1 to 60 while you at it. Truth be told, I see life from a different lens whenever I fall sick. That's my time for reviewing my life, either than to lay down idle spotting the cobwebs I have on my ceiling without being able to reach them. Not any severe illness, I mean, just a slight cold, headache, stomach ache and I'm in my zone of life review. That way I'm able to see almost all my mistakes, opportunities, goals, desires, ambitions etc. I sob or laugh when necessary, cause it's like my life comes to a standstill and all previous activities I have engaged in flips through my mind like a slideshow. That moment, I forget about my physical pain cause I'm very much soaked into my thoughts that my name would have to be mentioned severally before I regain consciousness. I begin to send messages or call people it's been a while I've heard from and I apologize if necessary for all appointments I made and failed to fulfill my end of the bargain, that skipped my mind when the time came. Then it would come to the turn of those I was very close to but not anymore, and those whom have been with me through thick and thin and the list goes on and on and on. Then the new people I've met and finally anyone I've met; their influence on my life. The direction my life is moving towards, the positivity and negativity around my life. The stuffs I use to love doing but do them no more. My new sense of taste and things that move me currently. The things that influence the things I do and don't do. And it goes on and on. Welcome to my world of thinking, where everything is left unturned and scattered all over. Enjoy your ride through my head and I hope you find the answer you're looking for.

Future IV

Girl: Hey, what's up?
Boy:  What are you up to?
Girl: Nothing at the moment. Just there.
Boy:  You said you return all your missed calls.
Girl: Yes, I do. Saw yours that's why I texted you.
Boy: I ain't part of those you return their calls huh!
Girl: Oh come on!, give me a break.
Boy: Oh really!, you need a break now huh!
Girl: What's your beef anyway?
Boy: So what have you been up to all day?
Girl: Nothing in particular. Why?
Boy: So meaning you've been basically free all day?
Girl: You can put it that way. So?
Boy: You didn't call nor return my call.
Girl: Hey!, Are you okay?
Boy: Do I sound okay to you?
Girl: That's the whole point of me asking if you are.
Boy: You call back, whenever you feel like.
Girl: #RollsEyes... Boy, bye!
Boy: Nice nice nice!, We shall see then.
Girl: Go solve your issues. You surely have issues.
Boy: #Chuckles... Girl, bye!
Girl: You won't pick up my call now huh!
Boy: Will also call back when I'm in the mood.
Girl: Suit yourself!
Boy: Working on that!.

Future III

Yaw: Meet Tanya, we met at an interesting stage in our lives. She was transitioning from her bad habits. Since she was tired of her old ways and wanted to try something new. She thought turning a new leaf was a good idea. And there I was, as clean as a Pope, ignorant of any bad deed. Ready to have a feel of enjoyment in life. I remember the first time I was kissed by a girl unexpectedly, I actually said sorry, as if I did something wrong. The girl laughed at me for a whole minute. I guess that was the first time she met a guy like that; hearing we existed. Another time, I went to this birthday bash and I was dancing with one fine lady. I thought I was killing it, until she turned and was like, "Really!, Is that all you can do?". Another encounter was with this Latino girl I met, she one time asked me to massage her cause she was so tired. My hand just kept shaking non-stop as if I was holding ice, she just kept laughing. Tanya on the other hand was that bad but hadn't really tried a lot of stuffs that I wanted to try. But she had done a bunch of messed up things she didn't wanna talk about. Even her standing posture was tempting, to talk of her sucking her lips when they were​ dry. You could just tell she knew stuff. I remember the first time we both went to the club. She actually danced for five hours non-stop and all I did was stand there and shake my head. Most of the guys around, wished they were in my shoes. Some tried to take my place but she pulled me even closer. Others showered insults on me. They just couldn't understand why I had a fired up girl to dance with and I was acting all timid and dull. Other times we would go to church together and I would be all over the place during praises and worship while she stands there idle as dead. Some interesting experiences we had. She's now married to a pastor, and I to a nurse

Future II

Fritz: You've shown me so much love I cannot account for. So much love I didn't think of. Sometimes, I know I don't act right and all but anytime I sit back and begin to think about my life, you pop up. We've had so many experiences that has opened my eyes to redefine life. Truth be told, my life was boring until you walked into it. I remember how I repeated the same routines everyday and wasted most of my time on people that didn't give me positive feedback. Your entrance into my life was an interesting one. You just walked right into my life and locked the door behind you, leaving the key in my wallet. Giving me the option to let you go whenever I feel like, cause you wouldn't want to forceful​ly be in my life. I'm sorry if I've ever been ungrateful in anyway. If you've ever sacrificed your time, money, leisure for me that I didn't show much appreciation for it. I know deep down in my heart I've got so much love for you, how do I know?, I sure do. I remember all the countless times I've had sleepless nights or lost concentration working cause of the way I did you wrong. And I love the way, all you want to hear me say is, I'm sorry. No matter how much I messed up, you still stretched out your hand, willing to pull me even closer. There's been so much drama yet you're always willing to let go of the past. I don't get jealous cause I trust you; my kind of jealousy is the fear of losing you. Talk to me cause agatchu!. We've come a long way to be letting stuff eat you up without letting me know.