#True Talk (Reply)

You always know a way to render me speechless, especially when you begin talking to me like this. I totally accept my flaws and questionable attitude of late. But you know you can always count on my discretion. I have been having issues of late and very sorry for extending my despicable temperament towards you. I tried to keep my distance so as to not do anything sordid to hurt or agitate you. I should have opened up to you from the start so you would understand me. And I guess it's not late for me to do that so I'll do just that when we meet up today. Or if not I' ll go ahead and tell you straight away, I have been tested positive for STI. Lol, kidding.

#True Talk

Seriously speaking, I hate being the one always expressing my feelings and thoughts or always checking up on you whilst you just like and comment. And it's like you always waiting on me to say hello or bring up "the topic" first. Truth be told, it's not cool. Things seems very one-sided lately which is me, me, me. And you on the other hand, is acting as if you don't really care anymore. Like the last time I asked you if you loved me and you were like, "okay, I love you". Really sounded weird and you know it but when I mention it, it would be as if I like nagging. But I always find a way to laugh it off cause the attitude you giving me lately is the same attitude I give to guys I'm not interested in. So you judge for yourself, whether you serious about us or you just using me as and when you please. Or on your own terms. As usual, I keep bottling it all up in me but I'm very sure one of these days, I will wake up and would go absolutely off on you. Just saying.

Should have seen this coming II

Girl: Please don't try to play smart on me. Don't even try to pin this on me at all cause I'm not accepting any blame for your own words. You knew for sure what you were about and I know you wouldn't say things you don't want to say regardless the intensity of triggering you. Just don't start making up excuses for your own actions if you are not ready to man up to them. Don't use me as bait or make me feel bad for something that has been probably boiling up in you, waiting for the moment to explode. I only asked a simple question and was expecting a simple answer but you decided to make a big tiff about it. But all along you kept quiet, knowing very well the day of accountability would surely come. Now here it is and you cannot run away from it as you usually do. My question still stands. Just answer and let's get this over with.
Boy: I have heard you. We can do this all day though or you can just come over and we would get this over with as you said.

Should have seen this coming

Girl: How can you continually hurt someone and pretend to be  totally cool afterwards, I mean, who does that?. I blame myself though, cause the signs were so clear without a stroke of blurriness yet all I did was to look at the brighter side. I decided to take my chances with you, with my fingers crossed that things would work out just fine. My hopes outgrew my doubts, my positivity shredded my uncertainty. Your charisma tore up my ego. And that is why I'm still not letting you go. We would get through this and you will stop that reckless behavior of yours. Always trying to push people away cause of your insecurities. I mean, Who does that?
Boy: So you know I like sending messages as compared to talking. And you still make a big fuss out of this anyway?. Anytime you ask a question and I'm silent for a while and now ready to talk, you end up saying "it's okay" or "you can just message me as usual". Afterwards you complain I like sending messages. I mean, who does that?. Lemme put this aside and address the main issue. I wonder why when you say something to hurt me you don't realize it but after your very words triggers me to also say something in return, you turn up being the one offended. Forgetting that the words that came out of my mouth were as a result of hearing yours and processing it. As I told you earlier, I'm tired of this back and forth things we keep doing so if you want out, I won't hold you back but don't keep asking me, "I'm confused, what are we?". Just make your point.  

Truly, hardwork pays off.

Dream is free but reality is expensive, I choose Reality, cause my mama use to tell me, "Son, nothing good comes cheap so you gotta workout expensively to see it in reality. If it ain't worth the pain then it ain't worth the gain.
 Life they say is not a race but some times you've got to wake up from your dream and chase after what you want, to make it a reality.
Don't take the easy way out. Don't quit because anybody can quit, but not anybody can keep pressing on. The easy way is to quit, but the hard way is to press on and keep pushing. I choose the hard way. What do you choose?

I couldn't hold back the Laughter

I usually visit Roy at 9pm everyday and sometimes I meet his friend Kofi. He barely speaks to me, at times he just winks at me and nothing more. I never knew he could talk that much until today. I think he was returning a game-pad and he saw me laying my head on Roy while we watched a movie. And he started his vibes, I quote:
"You are looking very sweet today o!. I like your dress, I mean I really like the way is short and all that. And purple color does suits you though. Anyways I'm heading towards my room, I think you should come visit me today. Don't worry my roommates are all gone out. I can take you through some salsa lessons since you look all dressed up for it already. And besides, I supply Roy with movies so you can imagine the amount of nice movies I have in store for you. And looking at the way you interested in the movie you two are watching I can also tell the type of movies you are into. But all jokes aside, you are a very fine girl. Haven't taken a good look at you until today. You even have spotless legs, which is extremely rear amongst ladies today. From the way you are laughing, I can tell you would love to know me more. Don't worry I'll take your number from Roy. I'll be in my room if you need me. And it's room 44, just in case".  

A friend I just met online

I met this friend online. Owen, he said was his name. We started chatting and got to know each other very well. So I went ahead to give him my whats-app number. I mean, he was quite interesting and all. After a week or two he asked for a selfie and I wasn't willing to send any but he kept on insisting. After a while, I got fed up and decided to take one and this was the very one I sent him. I went offline and come back online after an hour and these were the messages he had left me. "Eiiiiii, I cannot stop staring at your picture. I'm very sure you intentionally sent me this picture to capture my attention. It has surely captured my attention the whole of the day. I so much want to see you now. I think I'm beginning to have a thing for you. Please send me more of the selfies cause you have certainly made my day. Who would have thought I would meet a girl like you online and we would become this close. I now believe that miracles do happen. Hit me up when you back and let's talk more". In fact, after reading this message I couldn't stop laughing. He really made my day as well, even though I deleted his number after reading this message. Cause it was pretty much clear the kind of guy he was now. The type that fall for you only after seeing your picture. Smh!

Will she come over?

It was Friday evening, my roommates were all gone out on their own personal expeditions. So I thought of hitting Ivy up to come over straight away but I didn't want to sound desperate. I'm in the room alone, I messaged her, attaching a bored face. Minutes later she replied, "Okay, enjoy". To be frank, I was totally thrown off-guide, knowing not what to say, so I left the message unattended to. Minutes later, I messaged her other number, "Wish you were here with me right now". But after I clicked send, I read the message again and realized how lousy it sounded. Hence, I paused for 5minutes, she seemed not to reply as I already predicted. Obviously, she would be waiting for a message of clarification, if not she would call just to check up, wanting to hear what I'm driving at with the messages. But I wouldn't bring up the topic of wanting her to come over so she hangs up after checking up on me. What is my next move now?, I ask myself. Please are you coming?, I send her another message. I bet she's shaking her head right now. Even though she knows very well where I'm driving at with my messages, she pretends not to, so she replies saying, "Coming where?". Just be straight forward with her, I always say to myself. If she wants to come, she will come. About the time I was, my roommates were back. Never mind, I messaged her. Oh!, you too talk, she replied.

Toya, My Soul Mate.

It's kind of funny how we became friends. It just happen all of a sudden. I always wonder where I got that courage from?. It was the first day of year 1 student's registration. I was about the 20th person in the queue and we were over 100 people registering, so you can imagine how long the queue was. I saw signs of shock and lost of hope written all over her face. She couldn't tell where the queue was starting from to talk of where it ended at. When she got to where I was standing she stopped to check the queue again, and I was like, please you are in front of me. Where did you go?, cause I have been calling you since. She smiled and stared at me confused, then I made a space for her to stand just right in front of me. She dashed right in smiles and told me her name was Toya. I'm also Twista I replied. She was a little fair with a sweet-scented perfume, had sleek and long natural hair, infectious smile, cute fingernails and she kept throwing her hands left and right in my face whilst she talked. She was really full of gestures. Could tell she wore size 38 footwear cause she was very cute, cherubic with  average weight. Not so tall, she was around 5.8 feet tall. Loved her curly eyebrows with her silky pink lips. She kept flipping her hair backwards after every 50secs. After four hours of standing she started leaning on me claiming she was tired and asked if I didn't mind. Oh come on, was wondering when you would even start leaning on me, I replied. We both burst out laughing. She told me, she was reading computer science, at republic hall, room 69 and would be expecting to see me often. You will see so much of me you will start sucking me soon, I responded. We burst out laughing again.    

Trendy Ideas II

Two years later, Toya finds out the house, car, Tim had was all on credit and that 5million was subtracted from his account every month until 2018. And that his 20million salary increase was a lie. She was in shock the whole week, wondering how he could keep up with the lie for 2years without her noticing. Cause every bit of their lifestyle had changed thanks to the promotion, "Tim lied about". So where was the money coming from?. She remembered how the past 2years had been the best good living years of her life and it was all based on a lie. After a week more, she discovered Tim had a part-time job to cover for the salary increase he claimed but he didn't still earn much. She then confronted him and finally broke up with him. I noticed you wanted to leave me, and you'being the best thing that has ever happened to me. Couldn't imagine my life without you and how far we've come. That is why I came up with that lie. I know you will never trust me again nor be with me but I did it to see your smile that keeps me going every morning and your presence that gives me a reason to strive harder. These were Tim's last words. Toya left him anyway, but a year later he finally was promoted to chief cashier.

Trendy Ideas

Toya was ready to tell Tim, she couldn't continue the relationship no more. They have been dating since year 2 in western university and this time around she felt like she needed a real man. And that Tim wasn't ready yet since his pay was just 5million higher than hers and he is still finding his feet. She was happy when Tim sent her a message this afternoon that they needed to talk. She felt this was the right time to lay it all out. So they got there, kissed and hugged liked they use to do back in university. Toya was really feeling the vibe awakening. In the middle of dinner, Tim said, I have something telling you and Toya replied, me too but you go on with yours first. So he went on, I have been working on this promotion at work for a couple of months now and today I was promoted to chief cashier. Now my pay is 20million higher. In addition, I was given a house, car and weekly allowance, couldn't wait to tell you this. So what did you want to tell me , he concluded. I also wanted to tell you that we should be doing this often and that you've really made my day, Toya replied.

Encomiastic

Truth be told, the first time I got over 500 likes on Facebook was when I took a picture just like this very one. Until now people still comment on that picture. So I started giving my viewers what they wanted every once in a while that I felt bored. All I need to do is to take a catchy picture and the funny comments would start flowing. I wonder why guys like such pictures so much. I never go out without a man complimenting on my stature. It got to a time all I wore was dashiki to keep all eyes away from me a little. I don't usually wear fitting dresses anymore. I normally walk with my head facing down even though I still notice the men staring. I just do that to ignore them calling me. I use to like shorts and crop top a lot but now I only wear them occasionally and at home. I just don't like too much attention or people staring, it changes the way I walk and I don't like that. I'm much more comfortable in loose dresses and I don't wear clothes that I'm uncomfortable with. But all the same, who cares!.

Misrepresentation

For me, meeting up with friends once in a while is something is look forward to every vacation. Whilst some people entirely delete contacts of high school and college friends after graduation. I on the other hand, hold on to my close ones and let go of the situational friends. I do also say hello to every familiar face from all the schools I attended. I see it to be unnecessary preferring one over another based on physical appearances. Cause from experience, I have noticed that most rich people even look simpler. So judging from appearance isn't always right. Pretending you've not seen a friend you know very well, whom is waving at you from a distance is dreadful. Just a smile or a wave back wouldn't acidify your personality. Wonder why some people see themselves as highly-rated and wouldn't want to mingle with just anyone. Even sitting beside a mechanic in a taxi is against their code of conduct. They don't want to be seen amalgamating with nerds or poor sense of fashion people. Some hide their family pictures from their phones, being it their dad, mom, brother or sister. Others delete pictures of where they stay or church from their phones. It's a good thing to aim high but what good is it, to look down on others. Jesus himself, was a humble man.

Flummoxed

Trying to make things right but you keep pushing me away. I know I really hurt you and I'm truly sorry. It would never happen again. Please forgive me and let's continue from where we ended. I beg you, don't say we should put our friendship on hold cause I wouldn't be able to live with that. I have become very fond of you and cannot go a day without hearing from you. I never wished of us ending up like this, neither did I plan this. My words may not move you but I'm willing to go an extra mile to make up for it. I didn't mean to say what I said. Please forgive me. Wish I could do something to convince you right this moment to show how I have regretted my actions. I'm begging you, don't let this get in the way of how far we've come. It wasn't my intention to hurt you. Give me a second chance to prove myself. Please don't hold this against me forever. Please don't let this mistake of mine hunt me for the rest of my life. Find it in your heart to forgive me even if we cannot start straight away from where we left of. We can start all over from scratch. Please don't completely ignore me. I'm begging you.

Gratuitous

Just to let you know; I also do have a lot of options lately. I have noticed the kind of attitude you putting up these days. Don't know how it started or why but it's really not nice. It's very obvious you don't care that much about what I do think anymore. You do things how you please and don't consider my reactions or it's implications. I always see the disturbed look on your face when I reciprocate your actions. But that doesn't make me any better. Cause I don't want to end hurting everyone I care about around me like you do. And you come back acting like everything is fine as if you did nothing wrong. Like you see me around and totally ignore me, then you message me the following day saying "Good morning honey, how you doing?".  Like seriously, I ain't good at pretending and I'm not ready to start now. Just be normal around me. And please don't think for me; enough of the "I thought".